Ever since I hear that someone is in a serious health condition, I get myself into emotional and mental readiness of the possibility to lose that person…
Is that normal behavior, dose anyone go through that out there?… I find it so weird, I even imagine how life will be if I lose my family, friends anyone… it could be a person who is currently in a complete good health. Some times its comes from what others around me go through, for example; I was just visiting a girl who I work with and just lost her mum last week, after I left, kept thinking and imagine myself being in her shoe it felt like keeping myself ready if this might happen one day…
Mum could be sooo concerned from her relatives who go through illness, and I will come… telling myself if he/she die, then it's their time… we all are going to die one day…
Will you call my thoughts strange again? Sometimes I can't believe myself saying that… I am not sure if it's coming from the fact of being Muslim OR from being a cold sole… Or maybe just being rational…
I am really confused, I am not sure how disturbing emotionally I become when these thoughts cross my mind…
Anyhow, I know one thing… No one could ever be ready of death, not around not ourselves…